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Axing The Sugar

For various reasons (acne, health, etc) I am taking the sugar out of my diet.  I felt the need to start a new blog with this endeavor for some reasons.  This one isn’t going anywhere and maybe they’ll eventually be combined.  Dunno.

(and obviously I did not finish the 30 Day Shred – it was making me exhausted in the afternoons when it’s my prime time to be a Mommy with Z…maybe cutting out the sugar will give me that extra energy that I need)

Days 3, 4, 5

I am continuing to get up at 5:15 to “shred”.  Yesterday morning (day 4), I dragged myself out of bed and really had to push myself at times to finish.  I don’t know what made me so tired – I did do yoga Wednesday night (Shiva Rea) but it was not strenuous (Lunar Flow on her Fluid Power DVD).  But maybe I’ll avoid adding an evening yoga for the next week or so.

Even though I dragged yesterday I did do a little better on the push ups.  And today even better.  I have never been great at those and given that I am even heavier now than in the past, well, it’s tough!  I do not plan to move to Level 2 until I get through those push ups 100% for a couple of sessions.

I also plan to take weekends off since I believe my body needs rest.  Plus I need the mental break – never mind getting to “sleep in”.  Aka, sleeping until Z wakes up.  ;)

Day #2

Woke up at 5:15 am again and got my shred on.

I have yet to get through the push ups (on my knees, no less).

Now enjoying coffee and a slice f cabbage roll pie.  Yum…..

30 Day Shred

So one thing I am doing is tackling the 30 Day Shred Challenge.  I have done this workout a handful of times and really like how it packs a bunch into 20 minutes.  This mama needs something short and sweet.

So I dragged myself out of bed at 5:15 am and got it done (I am using my rebounder for the cardio – protect those knees!).

I’m pretty stinkin’ proud of myself.

It seems a lot of my attempts to balance my life is in my head and rarely applied.

I don’t feel healthy.  I do think I need to work on my “diet” (what I eat, not a strict plan of calorie reduction) and also get a regular exercise program going.  We want to start trying for baby #2 in the new year and I would like to feel A LOT better in my body before getting knocked up.  I don’t feel good at this size.  I can’t imagine adding a growing fetus.

I also do not like how my fat interferes with yoga.  I don’t want to modify because my fat is getting in the way.  I want my body to bend into the asanas the way it can best due to strength and flexibility.  I have to admit it really pisses me off when I know I could go further but my gut is preventing me.  I’m not doing yoga very often right now and it’s because I don’t enjoy it like I did in a smaller body.  This is not about vanity, this is about comfort.

I think there can be a balance found between accepting my body the way it is currently but then also working on making it a more comfortable, healthier, and stronger body.

Since starting this blog, I have definitely found some balance mentally.  But I am not physically where I hoped I would be.  That’s now my focus (while keeping the crazies out of my head).

Fly By

I am 5′ 3 1/2″ tall.  I wear a Red #2 in Right Fit Jeans from Lane Bryant.

Based on my BMI I am a “candidate” for lap band surgery.

I am shocked.  Not shocked in the “OMG, I’m so fat” but in the “OMG, a doctor would butcher my insides just because I’m this size” kind of shocked.

I am a curvy, over weight gal.  But a walking billboard for weight loss surgery?  That just seems a bit nuts to me.

I have had such an urge to do yoga lately and am adding to my yoga DVD collection.  I’ve also been do a bit of cardio and strength training.  But I really just feel like doing yoga every day (with some pilates thrown in).

My long term, very future goal is do have a daily yoga practice.  Even further away is to have a serious one – long practices every day (not exactly a feat that I see happening with little ones under foot).

I have to admit being annoyed my my large breasts and mother belly getting in the way of some poses.  I am pretty flexible for some asanas (not all, especially upper body – lots of room for growth there) and there are times I could go further if the fat wasn’t in the way.  So, yes, a part of me hopes those areas shrink for the benefit of my practice.  Am I going to diet to do that?  Nope.  Am I beating myself up about it and drowning in negative body thoughts?  Nah.

Would I have done these things like 3 years ago?  Probably.  Definitely 4 years ago.  (Having Z in my life has made me more sane about all of this, even pre-blog/actively seeking body sanity).

I have also tweaked my “diet” (the food I eat) a bit to lessen the wheat and dairy a good deal and to increase the good fats.  I am doing this to hopefully clear up mu skin.  I’m giving it a few months before deciding if it works or not.  But I have to say, I am feeling better after these meals so far.  Nothing is off limits (hence me saying I am going “wheat and dairy light”) and I have not gone into crazy deprivation mode since I don’t feel like I am depriving myself at all.  This is very big for me.  Usually even the smallest “diet” change (no matter the reason) meant I was going to end up in The Head Crazies.

Small, baby steps…

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