Archive for May, 2009

Days 3, 4, 5

I am continuing to get up at 5:15 to “shred”.  Yesterday morning (day 4), I dragged myself out of bed and really had to push myself at times to finish.  I don’t know what made me so tired – I did do yoga Wednesday night (Shiva Rea) but it was not strenuous (Lunar Flow on her Fluid Power DVD).  But maybe I’ll avoid adding an evening yoga for the next week or so.

Even though I dragged yesterday I did do a little better on the push ups.  And today even better.  I have never been great at those and given that I am even heavier now than in the past, well, it’s tough!  I do not plan to move to Level 2 until I get through those push ups 100% for a couple of sessions.

I also plan to take weekends off since I believe my body needs rest.  Plus I need the mental break – never mind getting to “sleep in”.  Aka, sleeping until Z wakes up.  😉


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Day #2

Woke up at 5:15 am again and got my shred on.

I have yet to get through the push ups (on my knees, no less).

Now enjoying coffee and a slice f cabbage roll pie.  Yum…..

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30 Day Shred

So one thing I am doing is tackling the 30 Day Shred Challenge.  I have done this workout a handful of times and really like how it packs a bunch into 20 minutes.  This mama needs something short and sweet.

So I dragged myself out of bed at 5:15 am and got it done (I am using my rebounder for the cardio – protect those knees!).

I’m pretty stinkin’ proud of myself.

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It seems a lot of my attempts to balance my life is in my head and rarely applied.

I don’t feel healthy.  I do think I need to work on my “diet” (what I eat, not a strict plan of calorie reduction) and also get a regular exercise program going.  We want to start trying for baby #2 in the new year and I would like to feel A LOT better in my body before getting knocked up.  I don’t feel good at this size.  I can’t imagine adding a growing fetus.

I also do not like how my fat interferes with yoga.  I don’t want to modify because my fat is getting in the way.  I want my body to bend into the asanas the way it can best due to strength and flexibility.  I have to admit it really pisses me off when I know I could go further but my gut is preventing me.  I’m not doing yoga very often right now and it’s because I don’t enjoy it like I did in a smaller body.  This is not about vanity, this is about comfort.

I think there can be a balance found between accepting my body the way it is currently but then also working on making it a more comfortable, healthier, and stronger body.

Since starting this blog, I have definitely found some balance mentally.  But I am not physically where I hoped I would be.  That’s now my focus (while keeping the crazies out of my head).

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