Someone found my blog by doing a search for “spiritual eating”. I was curious to see how I came up via that way on Google so I did the same search, which also led me to this article.
I am confused how this is considered “spiritual eating”. I see how one or two of the things she did made her a more conscious eater during that month (like eating alone - but we all know how I react to that idea right now). But the rest just sounded like a diet gimmick to eat less food (and how are you supposed to eat until full once you eat what’s in the bowl and are still hungry - are you allowed to fill it up again?). Never mind how she ate her very first day off the diet.
Being the Disordered Eater that I am, as I read the article I quickly flirted with the idea of how I could “control” my eating by only allowing a certain portion that is bowl-sized per meal. I could even use a beautiful, ceramic bowl. It all looked quite lovely in my head for about one minute.
By the time I was done reading the article, I was already feeling the anxiety over considering another diet and getting a knot in my stomach because of how limiting this “spiritual way of eating” (what ever) was. I went through this whole array of emotions, highs, and lows within 4 minutes of reading this article.
Crazy making.
On a rational note, I am pretty amazed how easy it is to sucker me in to the fantasy of a new diet. Something in me is craving that high, that promise, that something extra. I wonder if I’ll ever be able to satiate that inner need or if it will always be something I have to keep an eye on.
That sounds like me to a T. I get easily drawn into the idea of losing weight and then a diet that will be able to get me there - always consisting of limiting foods in some way or another. The excitement of losing weight is then followed by anxiety which usually leads me to a binge (and then purge). Luckily I’ve been able to keep the idea of dieting away for a while now which is definitely doing me good (so difficult at this time of year though when every man and his dog is on a diet!!)
Sarah xx