I’m at a loss right now. I am feeling pretty unmotivated. Z’s birthday was great and this past weekend was packed with activities/work. But both yesterday and today I have felt blah and uninspired. Enjoying my little Z but all the while being haunted with weight loss/diet/IE/etcetera thoughts.
I don’t know what to do with myself. I stumbled upon this blog today and have found the handful of posts I have read really inspiring. I am diving in to the archives and starting there. I also ordered myself When Women Stop Hating Their Bodies and am hoping that gives me a swift kick in the behind.
What’s bothering me the most is that I don’t know where these Feelings of Blah came from. Was it the weigh in? I felt fine about that on Friday so I don’t think so - although part of me still feels like I should avoid the scale. Was it the birthday sweet parade going down my throat? I do think I overindulged - both in an IE sense and a calorie one. Is it the heat? I have no desire to move my body right now, even in the confines of my air conditioned home.
All of the above probably means shit. I am betting that those excuses/reasons mean nothing, no matter what I come up with. I need to just motor through and not expect every day to hold motivation for me. It’s probably a Just Do It thing. You either do it or you don’t. Frack.
